The whole process of not being able to have children can be extremely hard and lonely at times.
Just recently one of my friends (one of the few) who believed she couldn't have children either was surprised to find out that she was pregnant. Her and her husband shared this news with us excitedly and my husband and I were truly thrilled! But at the same time, the news still felt like a small dagger into our hearts. It seems the list of people who are in the same position as us becomes shorter and shorter each day. Meanwhile, the list of people with babies is growing like crazy.
Are there really other people out there who can have kids? How much are their hearts breaking also? If this is you, please know we get it! And we also wonder, how to continue to smile through baby shower after baby shower while wondering---will there be a baby in our future? Ever?
In my mind I think, I should be happy for the blessing these people who have children are getting but in all honesty it is still hard. How can it not be?
In and effort to end on a slight positive note: We do still hope. We hope for a family, a family that God will provide. We hope to be a light in the life of a child who desperately hopes for parents as much as we hope for him or her. And we hope to be an example of faith to others who are facing these challenges.
