I felt better about it all this time and think my body was more ready---we'll see in two weeks if it was just hopefully thinking or may I really was more ready. (chance are suppose to increase per month) I had more follicles and the fertility drugs didn't make me sick like last time so that's all good.
I am still laughing a little from the doctor's comment as we got started on Thursday, "Okay, guys, let's get lucky" Very silly. During the procedure the doc and nurse started talking about some medical supplies the needed to order and it was so weird, like we were just sitting in on some staff meeting. Course I was thinking, umm couldn't you have this conversation sometime when I'm not laying on the table half naked...ha ha.
Anyway things when well, I had some weird cramping throughout the day.
We did some shopping and enjoyed a nice lunch.
We finally broke down and told Josh's mom what we were doing and she was super excited. And of course she and others keep telling me all the fun things about being pregnant--course I just want to say hold your horses, let's see if we make it there...
We'll find out June 10 if it worked. I really want it to.
This whole process has really been a learning experience from being remind of all those things I learned in high school biology about how reproductive systems works to learning how to sympathize with other women who can't have children. It is such a personal journey. I find myself irritated when someone with two children says, oh I understand we tried for two years...Maybe they can really understand but I'm like, umm no you don't understand. We have already tried two years, and we're going through this weird medical procedure using a donor---we're not even talking about the same thing. Then there are friends who have went through something similar who seem to not care or want to talk about it at all..which seems odd to me also.
I hope this process helps me better minister to women and families. Maybe not always being so quick to say oh I understand but just to say I care about you, I am sorry to hear that, and we're praying for you...I guess that's what I want to hear right now just that people care. Maybe ultimately that's what everyone wants is to truly know that someone cares about them...not someone to compare their situation to yours.
This has also got me thinking about the idea of sharing. And how to incorporate a share night in to say a women's bible study. Just a night to share what is really going on in your life and heart, which so many of us seem scared to do (including myself).
We'll that's all for today... as we wait and hope that all the parts are moving and working together to create a zygote? or baby.
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